If you don’t trust Him, it is because you do not know Him. So why don’t you take the first step in really knowing Him.
Say, “ Dear God, I want to get to know you. I want to open my life to you. I want to learn to love you and trust you, and I want to feel your love toward me. I don’t feel it but I want to feel it. I want to be close to you. And God, I want your plan for my life not mine. God, I want your power in my life, not mine. God, I want you to forgive me for all the things I have done wrong. I need your peace and your presence.
Thank you for letting Your Son , Jesus to suffer for me so he could pay for all my sins. God, if you want to use the pain in my life to help others, do so. I want to be more like you. So today, as much as I know how Jesus Christ I ask you to fill me with your life, and your love, and your Spirit, and start me on the journey to trust in you more every day. Then one day. I ask you to take me to your home in heaven where all the questions will be answered , and all the problems will be removed. And all the pain will be replaced with your joy. I look forward to that day. Help me to tell other people about this. In Jesus name I pray. Amen!”